ya know come to think of it... when jenni and i would fight. it was big drama and major hurt. so i know exactly how you feel. i would get so depressed and then i'd get mad and then i'd fight with everyone.
thank god we always make up. even after the big bad shit.
exactly, fighting is good. i always tried not to fight. i need to work on that when i am seeing someone, fighting is good, conflict cause help and avoid conflict just makes things worse and prolongs crap like a bad breakup.
to tell you the truth the best thing about chris was that i learn that i don't have to be nice to everyone, that i have to think about myself and what i want in a relationship. now the hard part will be to actually do that, i am backboneless a lot of the time.
i always knew what was important, i mean, i know that taking care of me first is what i have to do, however the backbone was a problem when it came to emontions. i couldn't stick to what i told myself i should do with it.
i can set myself a stick budget and follow it, i can make a plan to work out or eat right or whatever and follow it but the whole emotional aspect of my life was a mess. it hasn't been tested in a while so i am not sure if it is still a mess.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:21 pm (UTC)thank god we always make up. even after the big bad shit.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:26 pm (UTC)to tell you the truth the best thing about chris was that i learn that i don't have to be nice to everyone, that i have to think about myself and what i want in a relationship. now the hard part will be to actually do that, i am backboneless a lot of the time.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:33 pm (UTC)its good you've figured shit out.
took me a while to know what was right. i was backboneless a lot of the time and i was trying not to hurt people.
can't have it all. but i made me happy.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:37 pm (UTC)i can set myself a stick budget and follow it, i can make a plan to work out or eat right or whatever and follow it but the whole emotional aspect of my life was a mess. it hasn't been tested in a while so i am not sure if it is still a mess.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:44 pm (UTC)go get one...
now.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:47 pm (UTC)it doesn't work that way with me scotty, i am way to used to being single and i scare most men.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:55 pm (UTC)jus not mine *wink*
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Date: 2005-03-17 07:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-03-17 07:03 pm (UTC)you are making double dating really hard right now.
whats she lackin? we got a strap on. *blink*
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Date: 2005-03-17 07:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-03-17 07:07 pm (UTC)wow we made you LJ like...... collaps.
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Date: 2005-03-17 07:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-03-17 07:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-03-17 08:05 pm (UTC)you taste good too
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Date: 2005-03-17 08:09 pm (UTC)