exactly, fighting is good. i always tried not to fight. i need to work on that when i am seeing someone, fighting is good, conflict cause help and avoid conflict just makes things worse and prolongs crap like a bad breakup.
to tell you the truth the best thing about chris was that i learn that i don't have to be nice to everyone, that i have to think about myself and what i want in a relationship. now the hard part will be to actually do that, i am backboneless a lot of the time.
i always knew what was important, i mean, i know that taking care of me first is what i have to do, however the backbone was a problem when it came to emontions. i couldn't stick to what i told myself i should do with it.
i can set myself a stick budget and follow it, i can make a plan to work out or eat right or whatever and follow it but the whole emotional aspect of my life was a mess. it hasn't been tested in a while so i am not sure if it is still a mess.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:26 pm (UTC)to tell you the truth the best thing about chris was that i learn that i don't have to be nice to everyone, that i have to think about myself and what i want in a relationship. now the hard part will be to actually do that, i am backboneless a lot of the time.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:33 pm (UTC)its good you've figured shit out.
took me a while to know what was right. i was backboneless a lot of the time and i was trying not to hurt people.
can't have it all. but i made me happy.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:37 pm (UTC)i can set myself a stick budget and follow it, i can make a plan to work out or eat right or whatever and follow it but the whole emotional aspect of my life was a mess. it hasn't been tested in a while so i am not sure if it is still a mess.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:44 pm (UTC)go get one...
now.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:47 pm (UTC)it doesn't work that way with me scotty, i am way to used to being single and i scare most men.
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Date: 2005-03-17 06:55 pm (UTC)jus not mine *wink*
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Date: 2005-03-17 07:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-03-17 07:03 pm (UTC)you are making double dating really hard right now.
whats she lackin? we got a strap on. *blink*
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Date: 2005-03-17 07:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-03-17 07:07 pm (UTC)wow we made you LJ like...... collaps.
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Date: 2005-03-17 07:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-03-17 07:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-03-17 08:05 pm (UTC)you taste good too
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Date: 2005-03-17 08:09 pm (UTC)