Dammit

[bertine]

I think I finally get why my mom "forgets" to eat. Today I ate lunch (sandwhich and soup) and just had some steam veggies for a snack and now I feel sick again. This is starting to condition me to avoid eating.


In other news, I did deep water aerobics last night with misanthropoet and that was a lot of fun. I want to go again.

Comments

[bertine.livejournal.com]

GOOD, though if you feel like I do lately with food then I totally understand the whole lack of eating. It is just uncomfortable.

:)

[avecvu.livejournal.com]

Well, here is the thing.

Once you stop eating, it gets really really hard to start again. This is my problem. I have trouble finishing half a Luna bar at a time, because putting a little bit of food into an empty stomach... you get hungrier before you feel full again. Darkest before dawn, etc.

So the initial eating after not eating is really uncomfortable and difficult, and given my current emotional deal and the wellbutrin, I am having trouble working past that.

Once you start you have to keep eating to burrow through the discomfort so you can get yourself on an even keel.

I don't know if that is what your mom's deal is, but that is mine, and possibly yours, from what you have written.

<3