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[bertine]

also, why are half my friends not in minneapolis.

though that means half of them are in minneapolis so i shouldn't complain

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[bertine.livejournal.com]

that is what i was telling jenni. if i make a decision about something part of that is making the decsion abotu not regreting it.

then again, i regret 99% of things i do in a weird way. going to cock night? i'll regret it tomorrow because it meant i talked to people or something.

going to work? it meant i had to relate and i didn't get enough done.

but i shouldn't let this regret rule my life, i should just go on because there is nothing i can do about the past. so i stop thinking about it until i run out of things to think about then every stupid thing i have said and done comes up in my head until i can find something to block it all out.

maybe this is why i work so much and go to school and always have to be doing something.

[huckfinn.livejournal.com]

Hey! I totally get what you're saying about Cock Night. There are a ho' bunch of people on my friends list I'd like to meet in person. I don't because I fear that I'll say something stupid or offend someone. It's easier to just talk online.

And it's just the wrong way to go about it. I know this, but I don't change my behavior. I still live in my little shell.

The fact is, though, that the people you think you offended or you think you said the wrong things to will still want to hang out with you again.

You know why? Because you (we!) are fun people to be with. It's just that we convince ourselves that we're not good enough or fun enough or cool enough.

I think we're both dealing with a bit of low self esteem, 'though I know know what.

HA HA HA THREE GLASSES OF WINE!

[huckfinn.livejournal.com]

'though I don't know why

[huckfinn.livejournal.com]

"Is this something that I am going to regret tomorrow?"

Stupid three glasses of wine.

[bertine.livejournal.com]

You know why? Because you (we!) are fun people to be with. It's just that we convince ourselves that we're not good enough or fun enough or cool enough.

exactly.

[bertine.livejournal.com]

yeah, i live a lot of my life in my shell. it is pretty portable i have found.

you should come out more! jenni is good because she makes me do things. however i am regretting the three drinks i had last night. i am a little hung over.

[huckfinn.livejournal.com]

you should come out more!

I get that a lot, but inertia keeps me home. I'll go out one of these days.

[bertine.livejournal.com]

hey! if i go out, you can go out! i dare you!