really

i suck at being broke.

my car payment is late. a month late. i have never done this before. ever. i can pay this months, but that still means i have to figure out where to get that money. we won't even go into my tax issue. oh, and for some reason t-mobile didn't take the money out last month. i am so screwed. right now i am wondering why the hell i decided that school was a good idea, why i didn't just stay working at eschelon and screw that stupid piece of paper.

well, i just maxed out my credit card. i should call the bank and refinance my condo but there is part of me that really doesn't want to do that. plus i am not even sure they will let me, my icome is so low right now i might be considered too much of a risk or something. i am usually so optimistic about how things will turn out but today i can't be.