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Jul. 16th, 2005 01:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bertinepanic is totally setting in now.
what if i can't get the loan, what if i can't afford this, what if she is trying to screw me, what if i have to walk away from this, what if the assholes that fixed my car did it wrong and it falls apart? what if i bounce some stuff since i have to come earnest money by next thursday and i just had to pay 1000 dollars for my car?
jenni, i am serious how broke i will be for a couple weeks there. i am starting to feel the way i felt before i went back to full time work.
i must breathe
what if i can't get the loan, what if i can't afford this, what if she is trying to screw me, what if i have to walk away from this, what if the assholes that fixed my car did it wrong and it falls apart? what if i bounce some stuff since i have to come earnest money by next thursday and i just had to pay 1000 dollars for my car?
jenni, i am serious how broke i will be for a couple weeks there. i am starting to feel the way i felt before i went back to full time work.
i must breathe
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Date: 2005-07-16 12:33 pm (UTC)i also figured out how much i have extra to spend per hour and i tend to judge every thing i buy with home many hours of work that would be.
this mortgage will endup being worth a year and a half of work (at 40 hours a week).
I AM INSANE.
i am felling much better now though, i am thinking it just needs to be less hot.