weird ramblings

[bertine]

So, today I am at a loss, I like my life a lot right now but I feel weird now that school is done. I know I still have those two classes but really, I don't see those as anything to worry about, sort of like painting the wall after you build it.

Work is good, I like my job, it can be stressful at times but my bosses are good and treat me like I know what I am doing, which I do. At least now when I fight over what I am doing with my them things get resolved. No more working on a project for months just to have it shelved because someone doesn't have the balls to push it through. Plus there is a lot of work here, I can see myself happily building away here for a few years. I rather like having so much work in front of me.

Lately I have been falling back into some old patterns. I haven't been calling people back and my inbox is full of emails to respond to. It is funny how hard it is for me to be social. I like it when I am, I just get cranky when I don't have a lot of time to myself. I just need to calm my head down a little and start concentrating on my goals more. That is when being social doesn't drain me as much, when I have a goal that I am rushing headlong into.

I am going to start working on this site for my friend dave and his company tonight, I am rather excited about the prospect of writing something from scratch though I always find myself at a loss where to start. Once I knock out a couple pages I'll be in the groove for it. I have it all in my head anyways and that is the hard part of it, that and explaining it to the other coder, of course.

I have less than a month until I go on vacation, I can't wait to be in the sun and just soak up the ocean. The only thing I would want different about Minnesota is having an ocean nearby. I think once I get stuff done in the remodling of my house I should take a trip to greece to hang out on the beaches there. It is pretty much the only place in Europe I haven't been to that I really want to go to.


I just think today's mood is all about just being drained of energy. I can't remember the last time I was just so flat and unreactive. I am hoping this doesn't last very long, I like it better when I have a lot of energy.