i don't know what to do

[bertine]

i want to go to texas with my sister when she testifies at the trial but doing so makes me miss two weekends of work at 'nards and a week at dtg. that is about 500 dollars. i really can't afford that since that is about a third of what i make in a month and i just got back on track and christmas was this month. should i go and just say fuck it to my bills or should i not go and miss out on this whole thing (and seeing my buddies in Joplin?).

I think it is time to get a regular job that has work for me.