bertine | weird ramblings

So, today I am at a loss, I like my life a lot right now but I feel weird now that school is done. I know I still have those two classes but really, I don't see those as anything to worry about, sort of like painting the wall after you build it.

Work is good, I like my job, it can be stressful at times but my bosses are good and treat me like I know what I am doing, which I do. At least now when I fight over what I am doing with my them things get resolved. No more working on a project for months just to have it shelved because someone doesn't have the balls to push it through. Plus there is a lot of work here, I can see myself happily building away here for a few years. I rather like having so much work in front of me.

Lately I have been falling back into some old patterns. I haven't been calling people back and my inbox is full of emails to respond to. It is funny how hard it is for me to be social. I like it when I am, I just get cranky when I don't have a lot of time to myself. I just need to calm my head down a little and start concentrating on my goals more. That is when being social doesn't drain me as much, when I have a goal that I am rushing headlong into.

I am going to start working on this site for my friend dave and his company tonight, I am rather excited about the prospect of writing something from scratch though I always find myself at a loss where to start. Once I knock out a couple pages I'll be in the groove for it. I have it all in my head anyways and that is the hard part of it, that and explaining it to the other coder, of course.

I have less than a month until I go on vacation, I can't wait to be in the sun and just soak up the ocean. The only thing I would want different about Minnesota is having an ocean nearby. I think once I get stuff done in the remodling of my house I should take a trip to greece to hang out on the beaches there. It is pretty much the only place in Europe I haven't been to that I really want to go to.

I just think today's mood is all about just being drained of energy. I can't remember the last time I was just so flat and unreactive. I am hoping this doesn't last very long, I like it better when I have a lot of energy.

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This is so totally my mom talking but... it sounds like you need some sun.

that is what i feel like. it is all rainy and cold out too. i just want to lay in the sun for a couple hours (with all my clothes on and with lots of sunblock) and just warm all the way up.

people send me pictures via email a lot.
i like this but it leaves me with 900 and something unanswered unopened emails.
my goal is 1000 and im sure i will hit it by the weekend.
get some relaxation time in on your weekend and you'll prolly feel way way better. :0

:0 = :)

ok, i am not that bad, i went through my email and i have 9 left that i couldn't deal with right away. I tend to keep emails in my inbox as a to-do list.

i would have a meltdown if i had that many unopen emails.

hmm... this weekend is full. i have dinner plans on friday, work and gardening on saturday, and the aids walk on sunday.

i need to stop doing this to myself. LOL

You remember gay bingo Saturday night, too? Maybe it's the weather. I was dragging all day today because it gets so freaking cold in my warehouse.

Ah ha! that is what i wrote down, i couldn't read it. LOL

yup, gay bingo this weekend. how much do i owe you for that?

today is a much better day. gay bingo rocked!

Greece! Yeah do it! Have you got a holiday destination yet?
Come to the UK, stay at mine and hang out here :)

don't tempt me!

actuallly i am going to florida cause there are beaches there. woo!

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